Endless abyss of nonsense and sorrows
Web Design class. This is so fun. *sarcasm*
Im basically just sitting here... with Marcus attempting
to peer over the top of the screen and figure out what I'm
doing... an occasional smack upside the head keeps him in
shape. I basically get off scott free with this class....
all Im doing now is running Tim so we can spell check
words for the web page whenever we need to. Most of the
time I just create bogus web pages while the teacher isnt
looking... lol. I think my favorite has to be
http://sno_alien.pitas.com Marcus and I came up with
http://death_warn.pitas.com most of it was his morbid
brain going to work. I think Im gonna have to take it
off the web cuz it might be actually considered a
threat... even though it does say that it is a joke at the
I talked to Austin online last night for a while... we got
along just like we used to... im starting to hate myself
for ever doubting that he liked me, cuz i still think he
does now... I told him of the possibility that we might
move to a different city.... he admitted he would miss
me... and lately its been basically like normal... Im
starting to un-doubt us getting together... I dont know
though....... ill just have to wait it out and see.
Im starting to worry... Davin hasnt been online for a
couple of nights... im probably just being dumb... but ive
talked to him every night for like... a few weeks now...
and this is the first time he's been offline for 2 nights
in a row... i hope nothing happened.............. Im
worrying too much Im sure... i do know i miss him.
My black feddish is really starting to make people look at
me... differently... I love it! Its funny to watch
people stare, or glare at me. Lol... dont ask me why but
I get a kick out of it! lol. I still dont see why people
say black is an "evil" color. So many people assume that
Ive evolved into a Satanist just because I dress in black
now. After calmly telling them that I am still
Christian, they just look at me funny and walk off
mumbling "Christian Goth.. hmph... what next" its just
funny ^_^ lol
I finished the first of the "Left Behind" series
yesterday, Im not sure if I said that in my journal entry
or not. But yea I finished it. It was a total
cliffhanger. I stood up in the middle of class and
yelled "WHAT?!? NO!!! IT CANT END THERE!!"
............................... long pause of silence
and everyone stares at me .................................
I just sat down quietly while everyone continued to stare
Everyone started laughing at once... including me. It was
a pretty funny scene.
I MADE mom take me into town so I could get the next book
in the series... I would not let her question it.
Other than that, basically nothing has really happened...
ill write to you later if something happens
Well, nothing else exciting has happened
Im just sitting in my English classroom its lunch and I
felt like being alone all of my friends running around
and mingling, being happy and laughing, it just seemed too
exhausting or something I didnt want to be there, it was
suffocationg me . 20 people crowded into a little group
closing in . gives me shivers.
For somre reason I just feel exhausted . I always feel
tired, but its unusual for me to feel this exhausted. I
feel weak and weary, not only mentally but physically my
hands arent held above the keyboard as they usually are
they just rest on the keyboard as I use all my energy to
move my fingers to reach the appropriate keys .. its
Im going to have to leave you for now
class is starting,
and the teacher is glaring furiously at me I had better
put Tim up and smile back like I am one of her slaves that
will obey to her every whim just like she wants me and
the rest of my fellow classmates to be .. ill talk to you
.. I bit myself
just to see if I could make
myself bleed to see if my teeth were sharp enough to see
if it would hurt .. though I might let you know dont
know why its important though but I must go im getting
blood all over my keyboard