SilverEllipse

Mars Hotel
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2001-08-04 04:22:43 (UTC)

Depression

As I sit here,
still...
strange feelings
waves of--
over and over

like dry heaves of sick ones with stomach viruses

can't stop
won't stop

impending doom
like a panic attack
but...
different

eyes squint
as if hard to breathe
and deep gutteral pain

inhale
breath of air
exhale
hollow ache

dull moaning pain in the area
of my chest
like a madman gripping a spoon
beating my heart
again
and again
and again
and still i cannot breathe

day night
dark light
doesn't matter

utter misery accompanies
despite circumstances
despite time
despite day

no desire
but to stare into nothing
stare into something
but yet it is still nothing
and then the mind goes blank
and the content of a cow sets in

no bliss
no joy
lay still


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