n1cky

pinXsKy
2001-08-03 20:06:54 (UTC)

happy or sad?

dear diary,
malem ini aku ktemu ma gbt di irc.. he's initial is P, just
call him mr P. well i was happy for sure, coz i havent seen
him for a week.
he telling me about his life in the past, i dont have a
feeling to hate him, but i'm sorry for him...
everythings work fine.. until he mentioned about his gf..
hikz.. i'm just so sad.. felt wanna cry but my eyes are
dried..
i think i'm so phatetic.... i love guy who already had gf.
and how can i feel jealous with his gf? i should realize
that i cant have him, but i cant seem to get him outta my
mind..
sad..sad..sad...sad...sad......
wish i could cry and let all the pain flow with my tears.
but i cant.. i still cant cry.....


still love u... and i'm missing u




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