No Matter How Hard I Try...
2002-10-15 00:53:02 (UTC)

things that are keeping you here

Some horoscope wuotes before I begin about my day, they
make it a little clearer:

"Communication breakdown is likely. You will have spoken
too soon or too confidently about a matter you little
about. To be quoted on the subject later will be
potentially embarrassing."

"Everyone's behaving again. Maybe you should, too. Taking
advantage of something would only set the whole process
back. Anyway, aren't you the one who's always saying there
should be more trust in the world? Here's where it starts."
Alright, now it's time for me explain. Ok, I jumped to
conclusions and the jealous worried green Ashley bit my
sisters head off. I was totally wrong, a part of me knew I
was, but I'm stubborn and I have to know for sure. I don't
believe anything until I hear it from the person it's about
or has to do with.
I was looking over my monthly horoscope and so far it has
been just about right:

Monthly Romantic
You enjoy being the recipient of many admiring glances on
October 1st and 2nd, but instead prefer to be more of a
wallflower on the 3rd and 4th, careful not to give too many
clues away as to what you're thinking as you sit quietly in
a corner. Your emotions are heightened on the 7th and 8th,
but be careful not to let your jealous streak show too
much -- you might just scare someone off with your
possessiveness on these days. On the 12th and 13th, you
take a pessimistic approach to the game of love, but you're
willing to give someone a second chance anytime between the
14th and 18th -- if the person asks nicely, that is. Your
enthusiasm for someone new reaches new heights on the 19th
and 20th, so don't be afraid to show your new flame how you
truly feel. You may think that being practical and
conservative on the 21st through the 23rd will prevent you
from getting hurt, but it might just prevent you from
meeting the person of your dreams -- be willing to take a
chance in the name of love through the end of the month,
particularly on the 29th and 30th.
The second chance things is close. A lot happened last week
and I intend to clear it all up tomorrow and find out
EXACTLY where I stand and what is going on. But for some
reason after tonight I'm not too worried. I'm not sure
why...but I know I'll be nervous as hell tomorrow. I can do
it...I can do it. SHIT! I have the PSAT's tomorrow....FUCK!
I hope I'm done by 10:30...yeah...I should be.
Jess, I love you. And he is a FUCKING ASSHOLE and doesn't
realize what he's missing out on...but he will. He'll be so
so sorry when he realizes what he lost. You are an awesome
person and you're pretty, of course he still wants you. :D
I love you. Please be careful.
Anyways, Happy Birthday Trixie and I love all you of guys.
"The things that are kepping you here are not keeping me
here (at all)
The things that are keeping you here are keeping me away
And you'll be sorry,
Isn't that what they'll say?
Don't follow your heart cuz your heart always gets in the

~Dashboard Confessionals