down in my eyes
is it worth it? can you even hear me?
Why does he only call me when he needs to use me?
I am not his slave.
He seems to only need me, physically.
He called, asken for a ride home, tomorrow. ...
something about how his mom got upset with him, 'n
won't let him take the car, tommorrow.
So, i said okay. I didn't know what else to say.
I just got an email from Elaine. I haven't heard from
her for a month or two. She needed a favor from me,too.
So, i did it for her. She hasn't exactly been the
greatest sister to me, but it was only a small thing,
so, it's okay..
Besides, i want to be nice to her, anyway.
Her boyfriend has made her suuch a nicer person.
I love him so much, for her. He's the greatest
boyfriend, to her. It makes me so happy when they're
doing great, 'n it affects me, when they argue, too.
Don't ask me why. I don't understand it, either.
Maybe 'cos i don't have anyone in my life to make me as
happy as he makes her. I dunno.
All i know, is they're in their 4th year together,
& to me, it's the cutest thing in the whole world.
It reminds me of when i'm crowdsurfing.
I've discovered, that, That's the only thing that's
truly ever made me genuinely happy.
Okay, ok. Maybe not the ONLY. BUT, it IS the only
thing that makes me so happy, 'n, but, will never make
I miss him. He's the Person that makes me the happiest.
Okay, i'll stop right there, before i start crying,
I think i'll go for a drive, now. My mom's sleeping
over at her aunts', tonight. & my dad's in Japan.
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