poetic bleeder

life's book
2001-08-03 00:38:56 (UTC)

am I that unloved? then the pain must come

Gawd I feel so alone!! I hate being depressed. My back
hurts really bad... no one will call me... my grand parants
hate me... I NEED A NEW GUY!!! I mean I'm not some sex
obsessed crazy bitch... infact I dun care about sex... I'd
be happy with a girl if I had some one to hold me and tell
me how much they love me and how much I am worth.... any
body.... I'm so jealous of gay guys!! they're all so loving
to each other and I want somethin like that!! I dun care if
it meant I couldn't have kids. No one is readin
this.... 'cause I just don't matter to ANY ONE!!!!!! I see
all these people starting these things fer their girl or
guy friend and here I sit ALONE.... I dun even have any
plain old friends to read this.... I'm getting the cutting
urge again... it feels good to cut my wrists... makes all
the inside hurt seep out.... no one will stop me... no one
cares... I'm gonna leave this alone fer 20 minutes... if I
get ONE comment telling me not to I won't... if not, well
hey no one cares....




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