i_bleed_life

oh, fucking hell.

Strange dreams...

Walking around the halls in my dorm room, except they were
dark, dark, dark and scary and mechanics were everywhere.
They installed new lights in my room. I went and took a
shower, and came out, and got lost trying to get back to
my room. I walked in and took off my robe and towel and
then walked out. Wandering the halls of my dark, dark,
dorm naked and lost and scared because I couldn't get back.

The girl, the rubber bands on her wrist, the deep magenta
stain down the outside of our door like blood.

Sitting in front of my dorm with my stereo listening to
this music. I think anthony was there, but I can only
remember the random boy by my stereo. Why do I dream of
people I've never seen before? Looking at sex books in a
medical shop of some sort. Everyone I talk to loves
Bright Eyes. "Oh god, I love that song. It's so good."

Fucking hell, but I'm hurting. I hope it hurts you too.
I hope it eats you up inside like its doing to me. I hope
you lose sleep over it and drink to forget that you lead
me on and hurt me worse than you could ever imagine.