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The Way Things Are
2002-10-11 20:37:30 (UTC)

Let me tell you about my mushy day and... the SWEETEST THING

Today was AWESOME, well kinda... It was an A day so I had
the easy classes. I did my Psychology and world history
homework in Psychology class, and I just felt so good and
relaxed since I did go to bed at 9:30 last night. My dad
told me that Josh called me at 10:30 since that's when he
gets off of work. I wish I got a chance to talk to him but
yeah... like I was saying this day was AWESOME. haha
Today was "Seniors out to lunch" so I was kinda bummed
that I wasn't gonna see Josh at C lunch. But I did! I
asked him what he was still doing on campus and he said
that he slipped out during A lunch so he could see ME. I
in aw, and he when he asked if that was okay, "y-yeah"
stumbled out of my mouth as I nodded.
So during lunch I spent time with Josh. I sat on his
lap and goofed off with him. Then our athletic trainer,
Mr. Reeves walked by and started pointing at me and just
making motions for me to get off of his lap. Josh and I
looked at each other laughed, and looked at Mr. Reeves
smiling. "I'm serious" he said, so I got off and sat next
to him. But Mr. Reeves still walked up to us and looked
RIGHT at me and said "now, you know that if your dad saw
you sitting in that boy's lap he would beat your butt!" I
was so embarroussed but Josh didn't seem to care.
I did understand Mr. Reeves because Josh is a senior and
I'm well... a sophmore so there is a big age difference
since I am one of the youngest people in my sophmore
class.
Yeah well... The rest of lunch was cool. When the bell
rang, Josh walked me to my class and he hugged me good bye
and kissed my forehead. We looked into each other's eyes
and he whispered "can I kiss you?" OMG AND THAT WAS THE
SWEETEST THING I guy has ever said to me, but I said "no."
I really like him but I don't know everything that's going
on. Jessica told me that she told me the reason why he
didn't want to ask me out was because he wants to be free
his senior year and he just wants to be flirtatious and
such. And I want to be more than friend's with benefits
because he's probably almost like that with every girl,
right?
I'm basically confusing myself with the stuff Jessica
said to me last night. She told me that if I want to be in
a good relationship, I wouldn't get one from Josh. She
told me that he's got me wrapped around his finger, and I
thought about that during lunch today as I was linking arms
with him. She's so right and I don't really like it
because the way he is with me is basically the way he's
with every other girl, that's basically why I won't kiss
him until I know.




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