Scotty

[- -Scotty- -]
2002-10-10 21:53:42 (UTC)

Catching Up!!

Well, where do I start? So much has happened since the
last time that I have written in here. Well ok my job is
going good. And to tell the truth thats the only thing
going good right now. I am trying to piece together some
pieces that I THINK are coming back to me, but this time in
a different form and different people. I am yet to realize
the importance of my life. I am alittle baffled on 2
people i have met recently. The everlasting fear that the
samething will happen again overcomes everything that i
think. I am as I said alone at heart. I have been
learning how to rely on myself and not on other people as
much. I mean I go workout, walk, jog and just write in
this alone. So if this is what it feels to be independent,
then it is really not all that bad. The lessons to come
now, I am darkened on, but I am sure that soon enough I
will learn so much more; which will make me grow as a
person. My goal right now is to prioritize my life and
dammit make more friends. People that can help me bring
myself out of the dark abyss that I have made myself sink
into. The cost of me sinking myself into this sadness,
this darkness has beeb proven. So much of my time have i
wasted waiting for someone to come save me when all along
it is me that must save myself. I felt weak and helpless.
But i heard something that I want to share. (PROCEED TO
NEXT ENTRY FOR THAT.) Well i know now what I must do and I
am sticking my mind to it.




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