Fallin4u2023

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2002-10-08 23:51:23 (UTC)

Hey...

It's different around here then what it was... It's more
quiet and just no one to talk to. My cuzn has been going to
work so I only see him at night when he gets home at 9:00.
But lately I have been getting tired really fast at nights
so most nights I fall asleep and I don't get to see him.

My friends are acting different. They seem mad and sad and
I don't know what to do. The only thing I can do is try to
cheer them up but it doesn't work. All I can do now is
think about them all the time and hope that they get
better.One of my friends... Did something that I can't
believe they would do... I just can't see why they would do
it or what. I guess I just can't tell anyone anything
anymore.

School is driving me up the wall. I have missed a number of
days because I have to go see a counselor because I
have "depression"... My art teacher is getting pretty mad
that I am missing a lot of days for his class and I hope I
don't get kicked out because I need all the credits I can
get to pass. I can't rescedual because she is not open most
of the day. Only at 9:00 in the mornings so that is the
only time I can go.

My counselor is really nice though. It seems like I could
tell her anything. Today I just told her my day was going
bad. I didn't really feel like talking to her today but
that's what you go there for. I just made up some short
answers to all the questions she asked to she could sense
that I didn't want to talk. It didn't really work and she
kept asking me what was on my mind. I didn't want to tell
her I was thinking about someone that I loved. I wanted to
keep it to myself. So I told her nothing... That I just
missed my cuzn. She just nodded and I think she knew I was
lying.

I took my science test today and I dont think I did too
good. We had to turn this packet in and I lost that so I
didn't get any credit for it. My grade is going to drop so
much and I don't think I can handle it. Science is really
hard and I hate doing worksheets everyday for class.

Yesterday I went horseback ridding. Thank god that was
yesterday cause I was really down and needed something to
cheer me up! It was really fun and it did bring a smile to
my face and I was glad to see my horse again sine I havn't
see him in a very very long time.

Hmmm... Ok I really don't get this... Why does the store
sell hotdogs in a pack of 8... but then when you buy buns
they come in a pack of 10... Wow.

Anyways, nothing really great to say. I am about to go get
something to eat. I really just need to kick back and relax
a little and not worry so much about everything.




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