Wo ist Amanda?
Is it wrong???
Ok...I haven't written in a long time, but oh well. I still
miss my ex boyfriend, Erick, but I have learned to hide
my feelings for him so I can get on with my life. So,
since Erick, I have had 3 boyfriends. None of them
meant a damn thing to me...except my current
boyfriend. You see, I went out with this guy who ended
up stalking me and wouldn't leave me alone for like
three weeks! Then I did end up with that guy, Derek,
who I thought was a great guy. But he proved to be
some sort of ADD psycho or something. We're still
friends, but I can't stand him half the time!
Ok...now Trever. Trever is my current boyfriend. Trever
is 14 years old. Trever isn't allowed to date until he is
16. I am 16, going on 17 pretty soon. I'm also not a
virgin. Now...from just hearing that, do you think this is
wrong? About a year ago, he moved in across the
street from my house. We became like siblings...or so I
thought. He was like the little brother I never had. I'd
tease him all the time...and I still do! Everyone always
bugged me and accused me of liking him, but I always
denied it....cause I thought I didn't like him! But then he
decided he would come to my high school for his
freshman year. That just meant that we hung out even
more! Then I had everyone at school telling me to go
out with him. By then it was totally obvious that he hella
liked me....but I didn't feel right thinking of him in that
way.He's so damned innocent and good...I didn't want
to mess him up. But when he asked me out, I said ok.
And ever since then I have been realizing more and
more each day that I hecka like this guy! Even so, I feel
bad because of our age difference and because of his
lack of experience...ya know?
Well, not that I think anyone will read this, but please
write to me and tell me what you think. That would be
extremely nice of you.