grrlnextdoor3

My Not So Perfect Life
2002-10-07 23:29:41 (UTC)

why?!?!

monday oct. 7, 2002, 4:32 pm

i went to bed at 2:30 am to get my damn bio poster and
english project done. and i know that i am doomed after
today......the word of the day is NO!!!!!!!!!!!

ok everything i just said in my last journal entry is false
dont bother reading or telling people.

i dont understand how a person can say yes to go to someone
to a dance when they want to go with someone else. just say
no!!! its a one syllable 2 letter word that is soooo short
and not hard to spell out! N - O!!!!!!!!!!
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!
Guys heres a tip: if u dont want to do something just say
NO!

so i had a date to homecoming, now he tells me in drivers
ed in a nice way he's wanted to ask someone else. i would
have appreciated it much better if he told me no in the
first place and i wouldnt have been so broken up about it.

i could not face him to talk to him bc i would have cried.
he said he felt bad but he has no idea how bad i feel right
now. i've calmed down and let most of my anger out but i am
still very upset. i cried all period and i could barely say
anything without starting to cry. at lunch i ran to find
lisa and i started balling. i couldnt stop. i guess
apparently not just my parents and my friends no but i
guess a bunch of other ppl know now!

so i hear that he said no when he said yes and now we arent
going anymore. i am very broken up and have been through
this type of stuff too many times..... so if you see me on
the news from a mental break down or a strained heart at 15
or 16 sometime soon..... dont be surprised. i like him as a
friend, no chance i would even consider liking him now, and
he does get annoying but i thought hed be fun to go with,
now everyone wants to kick his ass but i dont want to hold
a gruge or have ppl hurt him bc its not right. the only way
id be happy is if someone asked me to homecoming now....
someone better.

i've gone through a lot and i mean i am not that mad
anymore its just the fact that i didnt think he would do
that to me is what really hit me hard. if he was a really
good friend he would have told me no........




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