worthless lil painslut

my submissive life
2001-07-31 04:20:22 (UTC)

my first session

I consider tonight to have been my first real bdsm session. While the other night i was following my dom's orders to touch myself, it was more of what i consider a d/s scene, not so much s/m. I am still sitting in front of my computer naked as I write this. The hanger with the clips on it is lying next to me. I enjoyed using it but wish i would have been asked to do more with it. I wanted to be ordered to kneel in front of the screen as i typed and maybe to pull the hanger occassionally.

Perhaps SIR did not want to push me too far at first or scare me off. But I want more. I have a high tolerance for pain and wish to test my limits. I look forward to using the hairbrush for my 36 swats tomorrow and I can't wait until i have moved so i no longer have to worry about the rest of the household. I wanted to be told to tell the whole room that i was being forced to kneel naked in front of my computer with a hanger pulling my nipples. I yearn for the time when my new dom and mistress will feel comfortable enough to push me further. I appreciate their patience and understanding of me thus far and I am grateful. But I am also excited and very eager. :)