SeXy ReXy

The "ever-so-much" chaotic Empire
2002-10-03 20:46:36 (UTC)

Saints and Sailors

Today, this morning I had a renewed sense of happiness.
Last night, Mike and I talked and we straightened a few
things out, and I was back to my normal self. When I went
to school today it wasn't one of those great days, it was
one of those "get me out of here, this so depressing" kind
of days. To tell you the truth I haven't had a GREAT day
ever since Josh left. Josh Greene was the dude I had a
MAJOR crush on for about a year and a half, every time I
saw him in the halls and we said hi, my day was 100 times
better. Even, if I got yelled at a million times, and had
detention, if I saw Josh at any point of the day, I was
seriously the most optimistic person you could have ever
met. Last September 2001, Josh moved away to Grand
Island. I mean, yeah it's only about 40 minutes away from
me, but since I didn't have my liscense or his phone
number, the only time I'd talk to him was online. Which
was great, until his computer broke and I didn't talk to
him for about 6 months. Even during those 6 months, I was
just barely getting over him. Finally, one day I was just
like, "ya know what?! I don't like Josh anymore, I really
don't." The next day, I was online, and Josh comes
online.... I was seriously shocked, my hands were ACTUALLY
shaking. I talked to him for about 5 minutes and I started
to have a huge crush on him once again. Just this past
month, I came to terms that I would never see Josh again in
my life and that he doesn't like me that way anyways. Josh
did hurt me, he really did break my heart. I seriously
would have done anything for him, see but, to tell you the
truth, I'm not sure that if he ever did come back that I
wouldn't hook up with him for one night, and that sorta
sucks because I have a boyfriend now. Today, even though I
was fine with this whole "Mike dilemma" I still wanted to
walk by myself and avoid him the whole day. I dont know, I
never really like walking to classes with people, I don't
like ever going out to huge group hangouts unless it's with
just my closest friends like: Kristi, Jon, Sean and Greg.
I love being alone, it's so nice, I never get bored, I just
don't like people I guess, hehe.




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