naughttychild

ANARCHYCOOKBOOK
2001-07-29 13:10:06 (UTC)

SUICIDAL TENDENCIES

WELL TO MY FRIENDS GRANT AND TOM I FEEL MUCH BETTR
TODAY. LAST NIGHT JUST SCARED ME BECAUSE I HAVEN'T
FELT THAT WAY IN A WHILE. JUST KNOWING THAT PEOPLE ARE
WILLING TO TALK IT THROUGH AND CAN RELATE WITH MY FEELINGS
MAKES ME FEEL SO MUCH BETTER. ANYWAY FOR THOSE OF YOU
WHO DON'T KNOW I TAKE MEDICINE FOR CLINICAL DEPRESSION.
THE MEDICINE I TAKE IS CALLED PAXIL. LAST NIGHT I JUST
STARTED CRYING FOR NO REAL REASON AND I FELT LIKE I WAS
ABOUT TO PLUNGE IN THE DEPTHS OF THE DEEP ABYSAL DEPRESSION
BRINGS YOU TO, BUT WITH THE HELP OF TOM AND GRANT THEY
WERE ABLE TO TALK IT THROUGH WITH ME AND NOW I'M MUCH
BETTER TODAY. I'M SO LUCKY TO HAVE TOM AND GRANT AS MY FRIENDS. THANKS GUYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SOMETIMES
BAD THOUGHTS JUST STAY IN MY HEAD FROM BAD EXPERIENCES
I'VE GONE THROUGH AND I CAN ALMOST RELIVE THE FEELING
WHEN I THINK ABOUT THEM AND IT MAKES ME SO MAD, I THINK
THAT'S WHY I GET ANGRY. WHO KNOWS. THE GOOD THING IS
I FEEL MUCH BETTER TODAY, AND I'M NOT GOING TO LET DEPRESSION TAKE OVER MY LIFE... I'M GOING TO BE HAPPY!
I WON'T BE ABLE TO WRITE IN MY JOURNAL FOR A LITTLE
WHILE, BECAUSE I'LL BE AT FIELD HOCKEY CAMP AND THAN I'LL
BE ON MY FAMILY VACATION. BUT RIGHT WHEN I GET BACK THERE'LL
BE A NEW ENTRY FOR YOU GUYS TO READ. TOM AND GRANT DON'T WORRY I'M GONNA BE FINE... I'M IN A REALLY GOOD MOOD TODAY
THANKS. OH TOM THE BREATHING DID WORK, AND GRANT I LEARNED
A NEW SONG ON THE GUITAR AT 1:00 IN THE MORNING AND I'M
REALLY GLAD I DID!!!!!!!!! YOU'RE RIGHT NO-ONE CAN TAKE
THAT AWAY FROM ME. WELL G2G..... TALK TO U GUYS WHEN I GET
BACK FROM VACATION HELL!!!!!!!!!J /K
L8TER,
CHLOE