skicma18

CCBV313
2002-09-30 04:51:55 (UTC)

A Day of Reflection

Today was a day of reflection for me. Not so much while I
was sleeping or while I was working...but moreso while I
was reading. See; we have this floor Bible study that we
do and we are reading a book about trusting God...and that
just isn't something I find myself doing on a regular
basis. But it is rather hard isn't it...to put your trust
into something that you can't even see. As I contintued
to read, I found that no matter what my anxieties were:
school, my audition for AI2, Steph's tryout, livin' with
Mark and Aaron next year for school...no matter what I was
thinkin' about...it just all seemed better to not worry
about them and let God worry about them. The only problem
that I found with this was that I kept wondering if it
would ever get done...and if I didn't give it up to
God...could I change the plans to work out in my favor?
Now I dont consider myself to be superly religious, I
swear and the like, but I do value my Christian morals and
I am reaching out everyday to become more and more in
touch with them. Anyway, I think this will be a long hard
battle and I hope that God decides to let Steph play on
the team and let me live with the two guys i like most at
this juncture, etc. etc. It's the waiting and the silence
and the inaction that worries me. Of course that is
mostly Western Culture...American Culture moreso than
others. In some cultures, the silence of a person or
the 'laziness' of a person has significant meaning. But
we Americans are go go go and we dont want to wait for
anything...if there is a small pause in converstaion we
find that uncomfortable and feel the need to fill it with
some space...that's why we say Um during public speaking
events. Anyway the examples could go on and on and on and
on...but the fact of the matter is this....We Need To
Trust GOD EVERYday! Anyway, I is tierd so is going to
bed...Have a good one and enjoy your reading...i'll try to
write something funny next time...perhaps something from
my memoirs. Later all-




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