ramblings of this hopeless romantic
AP CHEM IS A BITCH
OMG I JUST FUCKING FAILED MY SECOND CHEM TEST IN A
ROW!!!!! WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME??? I UNDERSTAND
THE MATERIAL JUST FINE--WHAT'S THE PROBLEM???? GOD, AND ON
TOP OF FAILING MY ASS OUT OF AP CHEM BARRET AND LEAH JUST
HAVE TO BE ALL OVER EACH OTHER WHENEVER I'M AROUND. DEAR
GOD, WHAT DOES HE WANT FROM ME? SEE MY EXPRESSION EVERY
TIME I SEE THEM TOGETHER???? OMG I CAN'T EVEN PUT IN WORDS
WHAT'S GOING THROUGH MY HEAD NOW. GEEZ, HE KNOWS THAT I
LIKE HIM A LOT AND HE CAN'T EVEN TELL ME HIMSELF THAT HE
DOESN'T FEEL THE SAME. GOD JASON'S THE SAME WAY--HE
COULDN'T TELL ME HIMSELF THAT HE'S GAY. TOO MUCH DRAMA
HERE. CAN'T ESCAPE THE DRAMA. . .MUST GET AWAY FROM IT. .
ITZ ANNOYING THE SHIT OUTTA ME AND I'M GETTING READY TO
SNAP. . .
why the hell do i have to like barret??? he doesn't like
me and he's making it very very very obvious by the way
he's acting with leah. GOD WHAT THE HELL DOES SHE HAVE
THAT I DON'T???? so what if i'm a little slow and accident
prone and a little bitchy when itz that time of the month
and i throw shoes? i've never thrown one at him. god why
the hell would i do that? omg. . i need to stop thinking
about barret. . must stop thinking about barret. .
i went to the brass masterclass this morning. . .it was
great. i kinda wish the woodwinds had masterclass too. oh
well. i wish i had a chance with barret. . .
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! CAN'T THINK ABOUT BARRET!!!!!