naughttychild

ANARCHYCOOKBOOK
2001-07-28 04:17:39 (UTC)

NOT THIS FEELING... PLEASE OH GOD NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HEY WHASSUP? IT'S REALLY L8TE RIGHT NOW BUT I DON'T
GIVE A SHIT. OKAY HERE IT GOES........ I'M SLIPPIN
BACK INTO DEPRESSION AGAIN VERY SLOWLY BUT SURELY.
AND I DON'T KNOW WHY. I'M STARTING TO GET LOW-SELF
ESTEEM AGAIN, AND I'M BEGINNNING TO FEEL LIKE I'M
ALL ALONE. IT HURTS SO MUCH. TALKING TO TOM AND CHAD
MAKE ME FEEL BETTER. TOM GIVES SOME GREAT ADVICE.
THANK YOU! I JUST....... AHHHHHHHH I DUNNNO? WHY ME?
WHY DO I CONSTANTLY HAVE TO FEEL LIKE SHIT? AND NONE
OF MY SO- CALLED FRIENDS UNDERSTAND ME, 'CAUSE THEY ONLY
SEE ME AS A "CRAZY HAPPY PERSON" OR WHATEVER... IT'S
SORT OF LIKE A FRONT I GUESS... BUT I GUESS IT'S LIKE
A SORT OF DEFENSE MECHANISM OR SOMETHING... IT'S REALLY
CONFUSING! SOMETIMES I'M EVEN AFRAID TO BE AROUND A LOT
OF PEOPLE AND I'M SORT OF AFRAID TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL
'CAUSE I DON'T FEEL LIKE PUTTING UP WITH ALL THE BULLSHIT
'CAUSE SCHOOL IS NOTHING BUT FILLED WITH FAKE PEOPLE,
AND THERE'S NOTHING MORE THAN I HATE THAN FAKE PEOPLE!
(TOM YOU KNOW WHAT I'M TALKIN ABOUT!!!!!!!) DAMN IT!!!!
SUNDAY I HAVE FIELD HOCKEY CAMP AND I DON'T GET BACK 'TIL
THURSDAY...... THAN I GO DOWN THE SHORE FOR LIKE 10 DAYS!
MAN I WON'T BE ABLE TO TALK OR WRITE IN MY ON-LINE DIARY!
AND TOM WE HAVE TO PICK A TIME TO GET ON-LINE SO WE CAN
FINALLY TALK TO EACHOTHER ON AIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OH YEAH TOM YOUR POEM WAS REALLY GOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!
OKAY I'M GONNA GO TO BED, I'LL WRITE IN IT AGAIN TOMORROW!
L8TER,
CHLOE
PS.
TOM I'LL E-MAIL YOU TOMORROW SO I CAN TALK TO YOU BEFORE
I LEAVE FOR CAMP!