ICanOnlyBeHele3

Wednesday July 25- Friday July 27, 2001

*Time: 9:22 on Friday July 27th
*Wearing: My player jersey, my black halter top, and my
black studded pants
*Jewelry: Tha Usual... I gotta get my braclet fixed tomorrow
*Hair: down with a bandanna holdin back my bangs
*Listenin to : Jon's B's cd- Pleasures U Like
*Eating/Drinkin: chewing bubble gum/nothing
*Song of the day : Don't Talk-Jon B
*Weather: Umm... good question I *think* all the dayz were
sunny and sorta cool...
*Talking to : Liz
*Mood: Happy
*Thinking: I gotta say at Andria's house more often...

~~~Wednesday July 25~~~

Umm... damn I really need to start keepin track of what
goes on... cuz I have been gettin my days mixed up... but
on Wednesday... Andria came over here... and I got to meet
Tiff cuz she was the one who brought Andria over here...
Tiff seems to be really nice... but then again I didn't
talk to her that long... so me and Andria hung out around
the house... and when I signed online... I noticed that
Alfonso... (u know my crush from 7th grade) was online... I
tell u... I was like omg omg he is on.. everyone in my
house was lookin at me like I was crazy... I was like what
Alfonso is on... lol So Andria was tellin me to IM him...
but I was like no... and like 5 minutes later I was like
ok... and I IMed him... hehe and he was actually talking to
me... askin how I was and what I have been up to and all
this... Andria was teasin me cuz I was havin hot flashes...
But anywho after talkin to him online for a little while...
he was like how bout u and your friend call me? I was like
ok sure let me see if I still have your number... and he
was like aight here it is just in case u don't... I was
like aight I got it... and he signed off and so did I... I
was freakin out... but I finally got enough nerve up to
call him... and when sumone answered his phone... i asked
for him... and he was like its me... he sounded so damn
good I tell u.... lol He talked to me and Andria until
1:30am... and I was jokin with him... I was sooo happy...
he even asked me if I wanted him to call me tomorrow... and
i was like yeah do u have my number? he goes yeah its on my
caller id... I was like aight u may want my pager number...
and he was like ok... and i gave it to him... but he didn't
page me... I dunno if he called me tho... ohh well... at
least I got to talk to him... lol... Then after I hung up
with him... me and Andria startin talking... and at like
5:00am... before we went to sleep.... Andria was like I
need a back massage... so I Was like umm... well I could
give one to u... and she was like ok... and she laid on her
back... and I started to massage her back... and she was
like do u need me to pull my shirt up so u can have a
easier time? I was like yeah... so I massaged her back for
like 15 minutes... and afterwards she was like damn u give
good massages... I was like thanks.... hehe she then said
I'm going to tell Tiff she needs to learn how to give
massages like u... lol I was like yeah baby.... lol then I
like flicked at her hair... and she was like... ohh no u
should've done that... I was like why? and she goes cuz now
I will want sumone to play with my hair... so I ended up
playin with her hair for a little while... and I had asked
her if Tiff would get mad if she found out bout me giving
her a back massage and playin with her hair...Andria was
like yeah she would... I was like opps... lol haha then we
went to sleep....

~~~Thursday July 26~~~

Today was my mom's b-day... and I feel so bad cuz I wasn't
home with her... but hey she had to work anyway.... so I
went over to Andria's house... and me, Andria, and Andria's
mom went out shoppin for like 5 hours... we rode in Carmen's
(Andria' mom) new blue Blazer... hehe talkin bout one nice
car baby.... lol I know I liked it.... well anywho when we
got home I called my mom and she went off on me cuz I
didn't call her... so I started to cry... but I didn't stay
like that for long... lol Then later that night... Andria
called this boy's Ben's house... and I guess he had sum
friends over... and I talked to this boy Izzy... and he was
like so when we r going to meet... I was like I dunno...
not today tho cuz I'm going to be goin home soon... he was
like ohhh ok... but Andria was going to meet them when I left.. but I
ended up not leaving... so Andria called the boys again to tell them
I didn't leave... I guess they said they would be over at her house
in a little while... and then I guess their phone hung up or
sumthing... So Andria tried to call them back again... but no
answer... so me and her started to get ready... lol u know just in
case they were on their way... Then we headed outside and played sum
kick ball, listened to music, and just talked... it was like 12am or
sumthing... Izzy,Ben, and Tim never showed up... which is a very good
thing... lol but damn Izzy sounded so damn good... hehe ohh well
maybe I'll get to meet them sumother time.... but I did meet Eddie...
one of Andria's other friends... I didn't really say anything to him
tho... lol then at like almost one me and Andria went back inside...
and I called up Jack... which was a bad idea... cuz in the end he
hung up on me cuz Andria was sayin shit... and he was sayin shit...
so it left me in the middle :( Another thing that got me a little mad
was when he said that Andria was pretty... and I was like ohh and I'm
not... cuz see he was sayin that I was a lard ass and all this... but
he said he was playin... he told me that I'm pretty in my own way...
I was like well damn ok so I guess I'm ugly as in looks wise...
Andria got pissed at Jack and me for both of us sayin I was ugly...
but anywho... I hung up with him at like 1:30... Then Andria and me
talked until 2am... and we went to bed... what a day... lol

~~~Friday July 27,2001~~~

Carmen woke me up at like 10:30 cuz my mom called... and I told my
mom to bring me sum clothes she was like ok... and we hung up... well
then Andria woke up... and me,Carmen, and Andria were in the
kicten.... I was sitting at the table... watching Andria and Carmen
cook... well in the end I got to peel sum eggs... lol talking bout
doing sumthing hard huh... lol haha... and then when Buzz(Andria's
dad) got up... all hell broke lose... He started to yell at Carmen
cuz she didn't rinse his truck off... I was like damn she went
shopping for u yesterday... and has been up cookin for u and u yell
at her for not doing on think? So me and Andria went outside to rinse
the truck... and after the second wash... Andria saw a boy she
knew... and she went to go talk to him... well since I just got up...
I was like there is NO way I'm talking to anyone.... and I went back
inside... and Before Buzz left I heard him and Carmen get into it..:(
So I went inside the house after he left... to find Carmen sitting in
a car upset... she started to talk to me sayin how Buzz was an
asshole... and I was tryin my best to calm her down... she started to
cry... so I hugged het to tell her it would be ok.... and I was
pissed at Andria cuz she was outside talkin to a boy.. while her mom
was inside the house crying :( Well my mom had already brought me my
clothes by noon... so I watched tv with Carmen for like a hour...
Andria was still outside... and then I told Carmen that I was going
to take my shower... she was like ok... and I jumped in the shower...
and then got ready... Then I went outside to see what Andria was up
to... and I met Brandon... this cute boy that used to go to school
with me, David I think his name was... this other cute boy, and Joey
this umm well not to good looking boy.... lol So I stood there
watchin Brandon and David throw rocks.... lol yeah it's a guy
thing... and when David left...I got to watch Brandon flirt with
Andria =-/ What fun huh?¿ lol... well at like 3:30 me and Andria
headed into the house.... and I sat around being bored... well then
Tiff called Andria... and I was like well damn I'm over here and she
keeps leaving me out of everything she does... so I called Jr on
Carmen's cell phone so him and gram could pick me up... they picked
me up at like 5:30... so I said my goodbyes to Andria... and told
Andria to tell Carmen I said bye... and I left with gram and Jr....
and we all went to the store... and came home at 8... I jumped online
for a while... and then signed off... and Jack called me at 9... we
talked for a little while and he said that he would call me back...
but I ended up calling him back... and we talked for a few miutes...
then he told me he would call me back again.... but I ended up
calling him back like right before he was going to call me... lol
thank goodness I did cuz he couldn't find my gram's number... I tell
u... its soo odd cuz it seems like I know when Jack is going to call
me or whatever cuz I start to think bout him... I mean there have
been times when I have picked up the phone... and started to dial his
number... but he was already on the line... and the phone didn't have
a chance to ring yet... lol but anywho I talked to him for a little
while... and he told me he would call me back again.... I was like
well damn.... so sumwhere between the times he kept wanting to call
me back... I got pissed off... and started to cry... then I took 2
push-pins... and I really did cut myself last night... not bad tho
cuz U can't tell that I did it today... but I did bring the blood...
and I like took off a lot of skin... cutting myself made me feel sooo
good.... like I had total control or sumthing.... but anywho I forgot
how many times we talked that night... but I know I talked to him
after I cut myself...and I do know that he told me that he would call
me back at 3:30 and if he didn't... he would call me today... well he
did call but I had already took my phone home... and I was
sleeping.... cuz I was watchin my lava lamp... and listenin to
freestyle music.... so ohh well... lol that was my day... I wrote the
ended of this on Saturday night.... and I will write bout what
happened on Saturday tomorrow... so i will go cuz my mom just got
home... so bye bye 4 now.... I'll add more later on.....