Destroyer_of_Dreams

Slumberland
2002-09-26 19:24:47 (UTC)

Once upon a time...

dear friend,

im writing to you because i heard that you're a great
listener. To keep my friends and i safe i will be changing
the names.
My name is johnathan. im an 11th grader. im 16 years old
and hate my life. I have no reason to hate my life, but i
do anyway. I wish i knew why i hate my life. Im not a
gothic little bitch who whines about it all the time. I
just deal with it and hope i can find something to do with
it.
NEWAYZ... Me and my friend robert say this movie called 40
days and 40 nights. It is about this boy that gives up
anything sexual. he gives up kissing, hugging, holding
hands, everything. I was joking with him and said i was
going to do it. he bet me i wouldn't. I did i'm on my
second day and it sucks. My friend silvia keeps teasing
me. she'll bite on my ear when im not paying attention or
she'll show me her tits(which are rather nice i might add).
I also broke up with my girlfrined last night. she is now
very depressed looking. she acts like the world is over.
I meant a lot to her though and i feel like shit. i do
love her,but i dont think i could be in love with her. she
is really sweet and loving,but not to bright. she is 18 in
the 11th grade. i cany be with her because i am not
mentally,physicall,and emotionally stable enough to
maintain a relationship. i like silvia but not enough to
maintain a relationship either. i would like to be friends
with benefits though. well as soon as this bet is over. i
forgot to add, i cant even masturbate. doesnt that suck. i
have so many mixed emotions. thnk god your here listening.
well gotta go. bye

thanks,
me




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