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2002-09-26 06:12:05 (UTC)

yeah so this made me feel just a little like shit.


(1:00:42 AM): until i get upset
(1:00:47 AM): and then you vanish forever
(1:00:52 AM): and i'm off doing whatever
idontavertmyeyes (1:01:02 AM): see im always like you stop
talking to me.
idontavertmyeyes (1:01:07 AM): and then i get upset
idontavertmyeyes (1:01:11 AM): and im like fine whatever.
idontavertmyeyes (1:01:23 AM): so then we just dont talk
for a certain alloted period of time
idontavertmyeyes (1:01:27 AM): its dumb.
idontavertmyeyes (1:01:41 AM): but. yeah.
(1:01:41 AM): it is
idontavertmyeyes (1:01:52 AM): i never sent your letter
idontavertmyeyes (1:02:01 AM): cuz you got all upset the
night after i wrote it
idontavertmyeyes (1:02:07 AM): so i thought you wouldnt
want it.
(1:02:09 AM): i know you didn't
idontavertmyeyes (1:02:14 AM): so dont be upset that its
not there
(1:02:19 AM): i'd want it anyway
(1:02:22 AM): i'm not upset
idontavertmyeyes (1:02:25 AM): not now.
(1:02:29 AM): i don't expect anything from you ashley
idontavertmyeyes (1:02:34 AM): well.
idontavertmyeyes (1:02:40 AM): nevermind.
(1:02:47 AM): what?
idontavertmyeyes (1:02:49 AM): i dont know

(1:03:56 AM): i don't make you upset because we're the same
idontavertmyeyes (1:04:03 AM): but then why do i make you
upset
idontavertmyeyes (1:04:07 AM): that doesnt add up
idontavertmyeyes (1:04:16 AM): im listening to bjork
idontavertmyeyes (1:04:22 AM): i think shes making me
crazy shannon
(1:04:35 AM): because part of me is always going to be
stupidly in love with you
(1:04:43 AM): and to know that you can't feel that back
fucking sucks
idontavertmyeyes (1:04:46 AM): lol. between bjork. tricky.
and le tigre. i will take over soon.
idontavertmyeyes (1:04:52 AM): hm.
idontavertmyeyes (1:04:55 AM): yeah...
(1:04:59 AM): that's the only thing about you that ever
made me upset with you
idontavertmyeyes (1:05:01 AM): that does suck.
idontavertmyeyes (1:05:06 AM): but i dont like upsetting
you.
(1:05:10 AM): yeah. don't remind me
idontavertmyeyes (1:05:10 AM): you know that
idontavertmyeyes (1:05:20 AM): thats why you know..
(1:05:23 AM): cuz it's just like you saying yeah you're
right, i don't love you
(1:05:30 AM): i try to keep my distance sometimes.
(1:05:30 AM): or in love with you
(1:05:34 AM): whatever
(1:06:31 AM): but you'll be fine in week and then you'll
forget about me
idontavertmyeyes (1:06:35 AM): thats not true
(1:06:35 AM): cuz it always works that way
(1:06:39 AM): i never forget you
(1:06:48 AM): i get set aside
idontavertmyeyes (1:06:48 AM): but when we start talking
and getting close you get upset
idontavertmyeyes (1:06:55 AM): so what am i supposed to do?
idontavertmyeyes (1:07:00 AM): i dont set you aside.
idontavertmyeyes (1:07:04 AM): its hard for me not to talk
to you.
idontavertmyeyes (1:07:13 AM): i dont even have your
fucking email address.
idontavertmyeyes (1:07:16 AM): i cant write you.
idontavertmyeyes (1:07:26 AM): i did writewrite you but
then you got upset so i didnt know what to do.
idontavertmyeyes (1:07:33 AM): its cute too. i want you to
have it.
idontavertmyeyes (1:07:43 AM): i hate hurting you and i
feel like thats all i ever do you know
idontavertmyeyes (1:07:44 AM): it sucks.
idontavertmyeyes (1:07:52 AM): cuz i love you so much
(1:07:59 AM): because everyone alway hurts me cuz i'm an
unstable fuck
idontavertmyeyes (1:08:18 AM): youre just as unstable as
me
idontavertmyeyes (1:08:31 AM): and its a bad combo at times
idontavertmyeyes (1:08:38 AM): but that doesnt change the
fact that i love you
idontavertmyeyes (1:08:44 AM): and you really need to
understand that
idontavertmyeyes (1:08:53 AM): i dont want you to think
that i take you for granted shannon
idontavertmyeyes (1:08:58 AM): but i cant fucking deal
with hurting you
idontavertmyeyes (1:09:05 AM): you would probably be the
same way you know
(1:09:12 AM): hurt me all you want
(1:09:15 AM): i'm used to it
idontavertmyeyes (1:09:19 AM): dont say that
(1:09:21 AM): so nothing has to change you know
idontavertmyeyes (1:10:56 AM): i dont want to fucking hurt
you
idontavertmyeyes (1:11:01 AM): dont you understnad that
(1:11:12 AM): but that's how we work
(1:11:31 AM): you could hurt me a million times and i'd
love you the same
idontavertmyeyes (1:11:34 AM): jesus do you think thats
what i want...
idontavertmyeyes (1:11:37 AM): BUT I DONT WANT TO
(1:11:45 AM): but i don't expect anything from you in
return


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