Michelle

Into Mine
2002-09-24 18:05:44 (UTC)

9-24-02

This is my first journal entry n this site. It's kinda
weird how people could read this if they want. I'll get
used to it tho bcuz its not like ne of u kno me.
Well, where to start? Umm yesterday I told my guidance
councelor about Stepy. She isnt doing to good at all.
Shes really scares me and Im afraid that Im going to lose
her. Las week she got drunk in her room alone n I was
online and she started telling me how depressed she is and
how she hates waking up in the morning bcuz she thinks her
life isnt going newhere. That scared the shit outa me.
She does have a lot of things to b depressed about rite now
tho cuz her older bro, Misho, was really bad and smoked
weed a lot and now hes at some school upstate that his
parents and parol officer sent him to. Shes really upset
about that bcuz Misho was/is like one of her best friends
and now hes not home. Also, during the summer, her, Misho,
Jordache, and Nate broke into Tara's house wen Tara and her
family werent home bcuz Tara's mom jus got remarried and
they slept there and messed up the house and shit and now
Tara has a restraining order on Stepy and she hates Stepy
and that really hurts Stepy bcuz they used to b best
friends too. N the las thing that has got Stepy really
upset is that she doesnt do good in school at all bcuz she
doesnt even apply herself and she thinks that shes dumb. I
think that if she applied herself she could do a lot
better. She also told me that she relies on sleeping pills
to get to sleep now. SO neways...I told my guidance
councelor about her n I was crying n shit cuz they made me
give her name and I really thought that Stepy was gna be
mad at me but it turns out that she realized that I really
care about her but she lied n denied everything wen the
social worker was talking to her but she reassured me that
she could never see herself ending her life and she doesnt
want to end her life but that shes jus goin thru sum
depression rite now. Everyone thinks that I did the rite
thing wen I told my guidance councelor about her including
my most favorite person in the whole world, my boyfriend,
Dan. He's the most wonderful thing that has happend to me
and I love him so much but neways were getting off the
topic here. I was jus lookin out for one of my sistas.
Another bad thing that is happening to me rite now
is that my mom told me that my lil bro, Jeffrey, might be
having minor seizures because he blinks his eyes rapidly
sometimes and he also blanks out out of no where so she
said she has to take him to the neurologist. :( I love my
baby bro (he's 12).
Another bad thing that happend today is I'm sick.
Dan got me sick bcuz he was sick first n he didnt tell me
until after we kissed for a few days bcuz at first he didnt
think he was seriously sick so now hes recovering and Im
sick. But I'll get over it soon. Today I had to leave
school early tho bcuz I jus needed to rest so I can get
over this cold bcuz I have 2 parties coming up this
weekend. Saturday is my cousin/goddaughter Samantha's 4th
bday and me n Dan r goin together and Sunday is my
friend/sista's boyfriend, Cno's, surprise bday party (hes
gna b 17). SO I need to get better b4 this weekend!!
Well I think I covered everything that is on my mind
rite now.
~Michelle




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