sweetaddiction

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2002-09-24 14:55:42 (UTC)

so how come you hate me

feeling pretty stressed.
tricky makes it better.

woke up to me bleeding.

im drinking tea.

just printed out the paper i have to work on with people
in class today.

work today.
after class.

im trying to talk to my mom. and all she can say is that
it will be okay. i realize that. it doesnt mean that right
NOW isnt a problem. you know? why dont people understand
that man it pisses me off. really? will everything be
okay? shit yeah man i think i would be the very first one
to claim and understand that. i know that. but RIGHT NOW.
right now isnt. right now i need a motherfucking day OFF
SO THAT I CAN FUCKING DO MY HOMEWORK AND STUDY. its not
like im bitching because i want to go party or something.
no. no im not. i just CANT fucking deal with wake up go to
school go to work go study go to sleep. day. after day.
after day. if i could have had yesturday off i would have
been fine. you know. it could have been okay and i wouldnt
be feeling how i do. i just HAVE SO MUCH TO DO. and i dont
have any motherfucking time for that shit LET ALONE to
myself. to fucking have fun or something. to fucking get
drunk and have sex. to fucking do ANYTHING.

well. now im late for class. so. yeah. off i go.