poeticgem

My sometimes coherent thoughts
2002-09-22 18:04:00 (UTC)

Hold on ... it's so sad but that's the way it's over

'I was walkin', many days gone by, I was thinkin' bout the
lonely nights ... communication break down ... don't know
what I'm gonna do ... I gotta get back to you ... you gotta
slow down, you got me runnin, you got me searchin' ... hold
on sweet talkin' lover, it's so sad but that's they way
it's over. I've been livin' on a dead end street ... I've
been askin' everybody I meet ... insufficient data coming
through ... I don't know what I'm gonna do ... I've gotta
get back to you ... you got me runnin', you got me
searchin', slow down ...' - ELO 'Sweet Talkin' Woman'

'Hello, how are you? Have you been alright? OH, all the
lonely, lonely nights ... I'd tell you anything if you'd
pick up that telephone. Hey, how are you feelin', are you
still the same, don't you realize the things we did and we
did and did were for real and not a dream? I can't believe
they're all faded out of view. Blue days, black nights ...
looking to the sky, the love you need ain't gonna see you
through, and I wonder why ... oh, tell it for life, give me
some time, I'm living in twilight, oh, tell it for life,
give me some time, I'm living in twilight. Ok, so no one's
answering, can't you let it ring a little longer, longer,
longer ... I'll just sit tight, watch shadows of the night,
let ring for ever more ... blue days, black nights ... I
look into the sky, the love you need ain't gonna see you
through, and I wonder why, the little things ain't comin'
true. Oh, tell it for life, give me some time, I'm living
in twilight.' - ELO

It's only 10:46am and I've already accomplished a LOT! I
woke up at 7:00 and went downstairs to see if I could find
a newspaper (a little guilty about taking someone else's
paper, but I'm not going to beat myself up over it!) Came
back upstairs, washed my face, brushed me teeth and climbed
back into bed for a few minutes to read my journal that
Harry made and gave me shortly after we starting our
relationship again - sometime in '94. Chantelle came in
about 10-15 minutes later and said 'Good morning' with a
smile and I patted the bed next to me and opened my arms to
her for to come cuddle for a few minutes. We haven't done
that in a while!

I made scrambled eggs w/cheese and toast w/strawberry jam
and OJ for breakfast for Chantelle and I. (Usually
breakfasts like this are only made when Harry's over) I
washed the dishes, ran the dishwasher, scrubbed the
counters, cleaned off the kitchen table (which was a feat
in itself, with all the papers and mail I've let pile up
lately), vacuumed and dusted the family room, straightened
and put all my CD's in alphabetical order, and the wash is
almost done ... as soon as the dryer is finished Chantelle
will go down and get the clothes so that I can fold them,
then Chantelle will put her things away and I'll put mine
away. I still have to mop the kitchen floor and vacuum my
room, but things are getting done and that's good. It's
true that keeping busy really does keep your mind off of
other things.

Also, I found a great opportunity in the classifieds this
morning, so I'm going to go in person and apply first thing
tomorrow after dropping Chantelle off at school!
Unemployment claim has been accepted and I got my forms to
fill out and mail in on the 29th. Which means we only have
to hang in for another two weeks before some money comes
in, unless of course I get a job before then. Still, even
if I do, I won't be seeing any money right away. At least
we're ok for now, though I'm $450 overdrawn in the bank
right now and only have 7 days to rectify this before they
take away my banking privileges - i.e. bank card and check
honoring. And the managers will be depositing the second
of September's rent checks on the 30th. Either the bank
will return or honor it depending on when exactly it's
deposited. I'm trying not to think about these things.
There are many more bills that are also due, but worrying
about the things I can do nothing about right now does no
good. So, I'm just focusing on what I CAN do and let God
handle the rest.

And for the grace of God, so far today is a good day.
THANK YOU GOD FOR TAKING CARE OF US. FOR THE FOOD WE HAD
TO EAT THIS MORNING, FOR THE ROOF OVER OUR HEADS, FOR THE
CLOTHES WE HAVE TO WEAR ... THANK YOU FOR MAKING SURE WE
HAVE WHAT WE NEED AT THIS MOMENT. NO GOD, NO PEACE, KNOW
GOD, KNOW PEACE! AMEN




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