mojo.jojo

MadNess of MoJo JoJo
2002-09-22 09:15:46 (UTC)

Frustration...

Sexual frustration, that is. I'm so tense and so irritated
because my hubby isn't interested in sex. Of course I think
it's me because of the massive weight gain since getting
the Depo Provera birth control shot and finding out I had
PCOS (Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome). I don't konw what to
think. Nothing short of an affair would really satisfy me
now.

There's another diary I read who talked about cybering and
whether that was cheating or not...I had responded that if
you were not honest with your mate it is. Well maybe I am a
cheater, because I've been cybering with another man who is
also married and has basically (like myself) no sex life.
We cooled things off after I got married to my husband in
late August, but still...I feel like if he lived closer,
I'd actually CHEAT on my husband...and that scares me. How
can I be so frank like that?? I haven't cheated physically
on my husband. I started this cyber relationship when my
husband (back then boyfriend) and I broke up. It was
casual...now I'm not too sure what I'm doing. I haven't
really talked to that guy since I got married because I
don't want to cheat on my husband or mislead him. But I'm
SO frustrated!!!

I don't know what to think. I have avoided that guy online
like the plague since I got married...but honestly...I feel
like maybe I have cheated on my husband.

i don't know what to think anymmore. :(




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