sweetaddiction

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2001-07-25 18:37:34 (UTC)

happiness to stupidity jesus..

happiness to stupidity
jesus FUCKIGN FUCKING CHRIST.
everything happy has its fucked up parts.
WHY.
why cant it all just be alright all the fucking time
i LIKE being happy
i mean maybe the sad just shows you how lucky you really
are.
but fuck man now im going to have to be all fuckgin
paranoid and shit
and why did SHE fucking write me.
lol.
NOW.
lol.
god.
you know.
i WANTED her to before and now i guess its good that she
did because im just not some stupid fuck you know but
really thats all ive ever fuckgin be
lol
i hate everythign and i hate everyone most of the time
when i DONT hate someone its SO fuckign rare
and some stupid bitch is going to take that away from me?
i mean god
thats a horrible decision to have to make
and if you dont pick me or whatever
im not going to hate you
just think that youre not as smart as i thought you were.
but youre smarter than me
because in your situation i would probably go for her..
you know.
because im dumb.
but i dont think that you are.
i hope not anyway.
but thats me being selfish
and unlike most people
im not JSUT fuckgin OUT FOR MYSELF.
i WANT honestly WANT you to be fuckgin happy.
but i cant deal with you resenting me over this shit.
fucking just FUCK her.
how the FUCK does SHE have the FUCKING right to come back
now???
LOL
jesus women are fuckgin evil.
seriously.
fuckign GOD WHY AM I A LESBIAN
LOL
women are CRAZY and make me CRAZY
lol
but i guess i love it..
right?
hmm