my own escape
2002-09-20 12:05:17 (UTC)

im tired

I hate the dreams, i want them to stop. Why can't I jsut
havea peaceful sleep? Why must I be tortured with reliving
that awful day of almost five years ago when that bastard
didnt understand and didnt care. I havent slept right in 5
years. All i want is to be able to sleep like other people
and not have ngihtmares about being raped over and over
witha gun to my head. Noone knew about that.
I hate falling asleep altho i am so tired I can barely
stand. I want to rest my aching body and allow all the
negatives to flow out and be replaced by sweetness. I want
my innocence back.