Anna

not wanting to do writing.....

sigh....i haven't had anytime to do anything
lately......partly because i had that retarded chem
midterm (which i passed!!! woo!).....anyhow......things
are going good.....i guess?.....i don't know....its
weird...i still have not really decided if i like college
all that much...i mean....its nice to be on my own
etc....but i miss my mommy....and i miss being able to
drive.....i dont really miss anyone at home really.....i
mean....i pretty much see most people....i guess id say i
miss kelvin...but thats cause he is so freaking far
away.....but he seems to be happy.....and
like.......goodness....jenny is right here....i can;t even
begin to say what a relief she is.....she is like my
surrogate mother......when i saw her last monday i was
like.......yay!!.....its weird.....i don;t
knoe......sigh.....i think....im not really likeing the
work in college....its too much i guess....im not liking
having to try so hard in all of my classes.....like all
the time....sigh....i miss being able to joke with high
school teachers...because they really do baby you....ugh
also....i hate writing.....my writing sucks.....and
like.....i dont like to be reminded of that stupid little
fact...ugh.......also......im still undecided about my
hall.....i mean everyone is cool......just seems that the
only one i really really can be myself with is helen....i
guess part of it is that she is similar to
me......everyone else is pretty different.....and
like....i dunno....id like to say that i am pretty open
minded about people but like my tendancy to cling to
helen......i dont knoe....maybe i should be more
social....but its not like i really have time to do
so........ugh!!!.....we need like a week of vacation time
already....i need fall break.....grz....