ruthemily

girl, interrupted
2002-09-19 10:47:27 (UTC)

scared

i am really scared.

well, ok, so i am always scared, i live in constant fear
of my next punishment. but my fear now is different, it
seems wrong somehow...

it is a fear of not living in fear anymore.


with no one around me to punish me, i really am
going to have it do it myself....

ABNEGATION


such a wonderful word.