dreamer099

a dreamer
2002-09-18 22:43:38 (UTC)

pretty cool day

today was pretty cool. my classes went by quick.on monday i
had dance. i got into this advanced class, and it is really
hard. i am not really sure if i like it. i mean, i think
the main reason i loved dancing last year was because i
felt so in control of it. not to be conceeded but i was the
best one in the class. and it made me feel good, powerful
almost. and now i lost that control. i was thrown into a
class with girls who are better then me and its hard. but i
hate it and love it at the same time. it is a challenge,
and its nice to be challenged once in a while. to test
yourself. but its like that in school too. all my classes
are honors. and i am not the smartest one in the class, and
then annoys me. because i like being the one that always
has the right answer. i think it waws good for my self
esteem. now i just feel like a stupid girl who can't dance.
but i am gonna keep trying. i went to the mall with mommy
today. i needed an outfit for ellens sweet 16. i bought a
badge courderoy skirt. its not short but not really long,
its like right above my knee. its cool. and i got a little
white tank with a red shirt that goes over it and ties near
the boob. then i get a necklace, ring and braclet to go
with it. i already have cool shoes. ellens party is either
gonna be really great or terrible. a part of me pictures
this great thing. like the return of michelle. since nobody
there has seen me in ages. but i knwo that won't happen.
haha. i just hope i have fun with them, i am not the same
as a was the last time they saw me, so they probably won't
be the same either. i hope i don't hate them. oh well i am
out. see ya later.




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