i_bleed_life

The mediocrity that is me
2002-09-18 22:33:51 (UTC)

I m sitting here again,..

I'm sitting here again, wondering if I am possibly losing
my mind. I need to do something. Just get out, go,
leave, run away, drive away into the sunset --- leave this
place behind.

I'm feeling trapped, stuck somewhere between the life I
want to live, and the life that I am living. How can I
motivate myself to learn, to go to class and study, if I
care less now than I ever did before? How can I strive to
succeed, reach for the stars, work to make my dreams come
true if I don't know what dreams I'm striving to achieve?

"Reach for the stars; even if you miss, you won't wind up
with a handful of dirt." But what if I'm not sure the
stars are what I even want? There's nothing wrong with a
handful of dirt --- if dirt is what you're fucking aiming
for.