lilbrit

Day to Day
2001-07-24 17:07:25 (UTC)

I WAS RIGHT

Of course, there was drama, just like I said. I just talked
to Jeff, and him and everybody at B and Craig's got in a
huge fight last night. It was 8 of them against about 30
other guys, that is such a stupid situation for any of them
to even walk into. Jeff said his eye is like swollen shut
and he's all scraped up. Go figure . . . guys just trying
to be guys. Whatever! I am so confused . . . I mean what
are they trying to fucking prove? I need a long vacation
from everyone here, but it wouldn't even be a vacation
because all I would be doing is worrying constantly about
ppl here, I mean I care so much about all of these guys
even though we aren't friends nemore but if nething ever
happened to ne of them it would hurt, especially with Jeff.
Maybe I should send him some crazy e-mail and then just
dissepear for a few days and see what happens when I get
back. I mean 5 minutes ago I talked to him on the phone,
and he was all weird, but he said I was being weird because
I was being short with him. Well what does he expect when
he writes me a 1 line e-mail " GOt into fight, I'm pretty
bad, can't see out of 1 eye. " Ok . . . Brit isn't gonna
panic, yeah, right! Whatever, I wish he knew how much I
cared but that would probably just annoy him, because he's
a guy and doesn't need nebody to worry about him, whatever,
I'm just gonna shut-up.
I really need some drug . . . but I'm broke. I've smoked so
much weed the past few weeks, I go through at least an 1/4
a day or more, by myself . . ok, that's not a lot, but for
1 person? I feel so . . . sober. Next Sunday me and Mike
are supposed to buy a couple grams of coke each.
Crazy . . . I feel like a hypocrite now . . . I mean after
all the shit I said when Brandon started dealing white. But
the high . . . is well great and it makes me feel beautiful
and outgoing . . . kinda like a shorter version of rolling.
That would be nice to do again too, it was a great if not
the best experience I've had.
So, whoever thought of this online diary thing, thanks, I'm
loving venting all my problems, maybe someone can help.




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