NbdysPerfect

The Crazy Life of Troy, the Drama King!
2002-09-16 18:17:38 (UTC)

No news is good news...right?

So, I actually don't have a lot to talk about this dreary
afternoon. I wish it was sunny again, I FINALLY get to lay
out and now it starts getting cold and cloudy! I was on
this medication where I couldn't be out in the sun for
long, but I'm off it now...but now Summer is slowly turning
into Fall. *boo hoo!* I wanna go to the tanning bed, but I
dunno.

I have to work today, ugh! I hope there are some fun people
working tonight cause I just don't really feel like going
in today. I dunno, I LOVE my job, but ever since I came
out, I've been paranoid that people have been judging me
and it's getting to me. Oh well! They can kiss my ass and
I'm gonna have a good time at work whether they like it or
not! Why stay a job that you hate day in and day out?

I got an e-mail from Kimmie today telling me that she was
joining a Christian group at her University. I think it's
great, but she's kind of afraid that some issues being
brought up might affect her and she doesn't want that to
affect our friendship. I know, I know, MOST Christians
don't agree with the whole "gay" lifestyle, but there are
some very cool reformed people who have grown with the
times and see nothing wrong with it. Hopefully Kimmie is
one of them and hopefully these issues will not be brought
up. Nothing could EVER break up my friendship with her, she
is all I need in this world to make me happy. She is my
sister and I would do anything for her!

Welp, I'm being pretty lazy today. I didn't get up till
11:30 and I'm still in my PJ's! I just haven't had the
energy to get up and clean my room and clean myself for
that matter. I think I'm still tired from my crazy weekend!
(awww, so many memories, hehehe)

I am going to end this entry with a song, I think it's
becoming a new theme for me!

I'm scared
So afraid to show I care
Will he think me weak
If I tremble when I speak
What if
There's another one he's thinking of
Maybe he's in love
I'd feel like a fool
Life can be so cruel
I don't know what to do

I've been there
With my heart out in my hand
But what you must understand
You can't let the chance
To love him pass you by

Tell him
Tell him that the sun and moon
Rise in his eyes
Reach out to him
And whisper
Tender words so soft and sweet
Hold him close to feel his heart beat
Love will be the gift you give yourself

Touch him
With the gentleness you feel inside
Your lcove can't be denied
The truth will set you free
You'll have what's meant to be
All in time you'll see

I love him
Of that much I can be sure
I don't think I could endure
If I let him walk away
When I have so much to say

Tell him
Tell him that the sun and moon
Rise in his eyes
Reach out to him
And whisper
Tender words so soft and sweet
Hold him close to feel his heart beat
Love will be the gift you give yourself

Love is light that surely glows
In the hearts of those who know
It's a steady flame that grows
Feed the fire with all the passion you can show
Tonight love will assume its place
This memory time cannot erase
Blind faith will lead love where it has to go

Tell him
Tell him that the sun and moon
Rise in his eyes
Reach out to him
And whisper
Tender words so soft and sweet
Hold him close to feel his heart beat
Love will be the gift you give yourself

Never...let him go...

-- "Tell Him" by Celine Dion and Barbra Streisand

P.S. sorry if my entries are getting kind of boring, I just
realized I don't have to write out every single detail
about my life...some thoughts and opinions I'm just going
to have to keep to myself...