SunshineKitten

Over The Rainbow
2002-09-16 00:31:55 (UTC)

Loss Of An old Friend...Or Not Quite

This weekend Saturday we happened to have a garage sale. I
was supposed to work there but mom took my place so i had
to stay home alone. I'd put out a few CDs that i had when i
was just 8 years old, they all sold except for one. They
were: Backstreet boys (3), spice girls, aqua, planet pop
2001, britney spears and Hanson, hanson stayed. I grew out
of these CDs a long time ago, i think grade 4. But its
kinda funny, like they say you dont know what you have
until its gone. Its so true.
When i was 8, mom bought me the first Britney Spears cd.
like many girls, i fell in love with her, as i viewed her
as the most wonderful person, i dedicated my life to loving
her and her music. I spent hours with that cd daily,
sneaking it into my moms cd player, playing video games
listening to it, playing with my rabbit while listening to
it, ect. I loved that cd to death.
During grade 4 when i believe her second cd came out, i
still liked her, but I'd been ignoring her cd for awhile, i
never bought her second one. I started kinda not liking
her, ignoring her, and eventually i hated her and her music
in total. Nothing would stop me from making fun of her,
like everyone else, i was growing up, growing out of the
stage where you must do what everyone else is doing. So i
talked trash about her, forgetting i even owned the cd
(like i forgot about all those other pop cds). After awhile
i actually started feeling sorry for her with all the
trashy rumors and stuff in the papers and Enquirer. So i
decided i could hate her music as much as i wanted, but
because she was a person with feelings, i had to respect
her. Thats exactly what i did.
When it came time for the garage sale i went through my
cds, choosing only the peppy pop ones to go, and finally,
while searching thru my mounds of discs, i came across that
dusty britney cd. I almost decided to keep it...almost. I
listened to it one last time, said my good-byes, and put
the $5 tape on it. Off it went. I never really did say
proper goodbyes to this friend, but it was too late.

Today after getting back only my Hanson cd, i asked my mom
who bought the britney cd. She told me it was a little 8
year old girl who was smiling so happily when she found
that cd, my mom said she was practically in tears she was
so happy to see it. eyes glowing, heart pounding, that
little girl took that cd. It felt so odd, giving away
something i worshiped, but the best thing is, i bet that
little girl is so happy with that cd, just like i was. And
she may eventually get older and start liking different
music, but getting a cd that held so much love from another
girl, thats gotta be awesome. I really wish i could have
been working at the garage sale, telling that little girl
how lucky she was. But its over, gone, she's probably
listening to it right now, singing along...

It kind of feels like I've got a piece of me missing, this
sounds corny, i know, but letting go is so hard. Harder
than i thought...good things will come though.

Like the last song on that cd said, And The Beat Goes On...




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