a chick called Sam

I am sam's inner thoughts
2002-09-15 17:49:46 (UTC)

snuffle

Well I've got a virus, *cough*...It's horrid, *sniff*.

I've not been very happy recently, but I believe it's
something to do with the planets.

But any way...college is nothing like it was last year, not
much fun. Though I'm hoping that is because it's only the
beginning of the term. Hoping that everyone will eventually
get into the swing of things soon.

I am still in love with Adam, although I am having problems
believing that he loves me. I'm seriously worried that I
might also push him away from me, as I do with anyone that
becomes close to me. Wether it be consious or not, I can
feel him slipping away. Every time I have issues which I
keep private to myself, and every time I do something which
dissapoints him. I just have difficulties opening myself up
to people. When I do so it's either when I'm empty inside
(in the worst of cases), pilled up (lack of ego whilst drug
enduced, and too happy to be bothered by the talking, or
when Adam perswades me to (because he feels hurt if I don't
share my problems with him). "We are in a relatinship!!
Your problems are mine and vice versa, therefore we must
help each other when we need it. How can I help you if you
don't tell me your problems. If you tell them to me that's
half the strain off your shouulders."




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