riceplanter

Life At Its Fullest Swing

For every good thing there is a not so good thing. To know
that what you`ve always believed in will eventually come to
an end. Not all stories have a happy ending. And then
there`s my life.

I used to believe that the God I grew up knowing punished
only the bad people. And now I find myself trying to
believe that what`s going on is for the best and something
good is going to come out of this. Maybe punished is a
strong word, but I don`t know how else to describe it.

This isn`t helping me to restore my faith. I never lost it.
But I am having a difficult time accepting the fact that
this is all part of God`s plan. My mind says to `Trust in
Him` and my heart says `This is so full of crap`.

I guess this is what everyone calls the facts of life, or
going full circle, or growing up... Whatever it is, I`ve
learned to accept it (because I don`t really have a
choice), but I don`t like it. Not at all. Not ever.