Nicole

~Lost in Darkness~
2002-09-13 01:42:49 (UTC)

Mother Problems

OK today is Thursday, Tuesday i staid after. Accidentlly
broke moms cell phone. Well later that day she bitched me
out twice over it. I went to bed crying and that wasnt
cool. Well the fallowing morning i got a really lame as
note from her saying how sorry she was but basically it was
still my fault. Ya well i havent talked to her at all since
then. Not more than a simple yes or no and a few other
words. Today she got pissed at me for not talking to her.
Just as well cause honestlly i dont care to be her best
friend though she tries to be mine. Well she cant be bolth
mom and bestfriend. And now shes just mom to me and she
dosent want to lose that friendship. I dont care to revive
that friendship anytime soon. And what really ticked me
off, be4 she left i told her i wanted to go to the football
game tommorrow. She was like oh cool, ya totally, being a
friend and then turned it against me, ya ill take you if
you do your 2 hours of your viola practice. God that pissed
me off so much, i just walked out and went into my room and
was like nevermind. Im just going to go with Vannessa.
Screw this. I cant deal with her problems plus my own. And
trust me i have my own. Besides having a shit load of
homework everysingle damn day i have to practice viola, job
and a social life. And even that life is slowlly
discenagrading. If it werent for Amelia it would already be
gone for me. That and Donna in Geomotry with me. Ontop of
that my obession of my weights gotten worse. I actually ate
lunch today, the rest of the day at school i felt like i
was ready to puke. I had 3 people ask if i was okay just
going back to class, funney though, none of them were any
of the people i sit with regualarly except for Shane, who
just happened to notice my hand covering my stomack. *sigh*
and ontop of that, in forth period one of the subjects we
did was anerixa. I almost started to cry. I kept muddering
to myself, how i didnt want to be there. THe teacher over
heard and thankfully changed the subject after a few
minutes. Im most thankful to him. Im scared to eat now
though. My body is starting to reject what food i give it.
I think ill eat soup for the rest of the week and see how
it goes from ther.




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