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Nicole, it's what's for dinner.
2002-09-11 08:53:43 (UTC)

I am in love.......with a liitle pink sock.....ok, another girl actually!

Well well well. It has been a long time since my last
entry, possibly because I have been running around like
headless poultry, trying to finish the small things I have
to do so I can spend time with Becky. That really is all I
want to do lately. I am always thinking of her, always
trying to find a minute to talk to her, write to her, or be
with her. I can't get enough of her. The feelings I am
experiencing are nothing short of intense, and it is
wonderful and overwhelming (in a good way) at the same
time. I have never connected in a such a way with anyone,
it is amazing. It is beautiful. When I am with her I have
this calm feeling about me, she makes me happy. I can be
myself around her and not worry about being judged. I can
bleed on her clothes and not get thrown out, just as she
can sneeze on my foot and not get her ass kicked. I can
have a panic attack and know that she will be there to hold
my hand and look in my eyes and tell me I will be ok. She
is always there for me, as I am for her, and I love that. I
love knowing that she understands, and she cares, and that
she loves me as much as I love her. I LOVE the way she
calls me baby, and the noises she makes as she does so. I
used to make fun of Dan and Erica for spending so much time
together, I guess I still do, but now I understand how they
feel and why they always want to be together. I am feeling
that way now. And while I am so happy, I am also sad. I
want to marry her, and have children with her, and that
will never be possible. I guess that is a bridge I will
have to cross later though. For now, I am so in love, and
so happy, and that is what I am going to focus on. I love
my little pink sock.




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