Blind My Eyes
*Screw This Shit*
Ok, well yeah. Michael's friends are running their fat
mouths about me, and when Hannah and I confronted them, the
just laughed. Whatever. I fuckin hate people.
Jake is pretty much not talking to me. He swore to me that
if we did anything that he wouldn't quit talking to me, but
ya know what? Screw it. I'm just gonna go for, maybe all of
the rest of my highschool life single. I just don't even
feel like talking to him anymore. I understand that Mallory
hurt him, and I understand that I am nowhere near as pretty
or anything as she is, so if he wants bitches that are
going to cheat on him and try to play him, then whatever,
because that isn't me. I would never do that to anyone.
Especially because I know how good of a person he is, or
can be. So maybe I'm just not good enough for him. Fine.
I give up. Guys just aren't attracted to me. At least the
ones that I like. I need to feel loved tho... at least
liked, and it is Killing me. Maybe I should just be a ho or
something. I'd get affection and shit. I don't know. Now,
my bitch ass "friends" are all talkin shit about me. I
can't Wait to get the hell out of here. I swear i'm never
looking back. Too painful.
Why can't God or whoever the hell is runnin things just
take me out of here. I don't seem to be doing any good.
*Don't forget to have a Moment of Silence for the lives
lost on September 11, 2001. God help us to get the nation