daccn

I am not a clerk
2002-09-10 02:44:07 (UTC)

soul-sucking?

Well, today was the first day of the second week of
university. Things are going relatively smoothly. This girl
has latched onto me as a "study partner," which is a very
good thing, I think. I won't forget to do the assignments if
I'm doing them with someone else (I hope).

I went to the co-op "shmoozefest" today...it was difficult
to mix due to the thing being held in a room full of tables.
Of course everyone parks themselves at a table with a group
of friends, and there is very little "mixing" going on. I
sat at a table with a condescending girl and a revoltingly
arrogant guy...I couldn't stand either of them after five
minutes. I don't fit in with this group, but I don't want to
fit in with them. I should at least try to be more sociable,
I suppose. I just don't like hanging around people who act
as though they are auditioning for a movie role of a
high-powered wall street hotshot.
I am well versed in classical music and literature; I watch
obscure films; I write and sing and play the piano. All of
these things would be currency in the arts program...but
this sort of thing does not impress the finance and
marketing types who surround me. I've been hanging out with
the geeky crowd for far too long, I guess, and it's left me
with an elitist mentality in a world where being elite
requires something totally different.

I hope this program doesn't end up sucking my soul, even if
it is completely at odds with it.




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