Venus

I Used to be...Now I don't know
2002-09-09 15:40:14 (UTC)

Crap, and stuff

I'm bored. The d-a-m-n printer won't print my homework...
I got a letter from my mum this morning. Yeah! And one
from Tasha, that I can't wait to read, but haven't had a
chance. : ) I like mail, mail is cool. Everyone send me
male - I mean, mail! *sigh* I'm over-tired. I got up for
my 8:30 class at 7, and was ready by 7:30. So I farted
around the room, then went to the CC at 8. I sat around
for a half hour... YEAH ME!! I get to go into the studio
tonight, which means I miss kickboxing, but hey, it's
homework. (Studio stuff, not kickboxing.)
I miss my people. : ( I feel so disconnected. Nothing
overly exciting happens, but I still feel like I'm missing
out. I'm missing out on my friends' lives.... AND THE
PRINTER SUCKS. (Random need to yell, you know how it is.)
I'm missing out on one of the biggest years, senior year,
for my brother, and some of my closest friends. I'm
missing out on Mikie G's freshman year, which I really wish
I was there to see! Plus, I'm just missing out on my
sister's life. She feels like she's a bum, because she
didn't go to college, but I think she's the lucky one. She
loves to meet new people, but by staying home she can, plus
be surrounded by those that already love her. I have to
start all over. I got lucky that Jona and I clicked, but I
can tell it's not going to be like any of the friendships
back home. Or at least, not for a while. Plus she, and
Darren, are the only two people I've really clicked with.
I miss my FAMILY, my sisters, and my cousins. My pole, and
my porn sister. (You know who you are. "Um... yeah."
LOL) And I miss being with Michael every day, just
chillin'. I miss my nice, dark bedroom. Because of
classes going late, and people being around all the time
the campus has to be lit up like a freakin' Christmas
tree. *sigh* And all that shit....
I will be comin' home this weekend, though. Rora's
birthday is coming up, so I HAVE to be there for that!
(Not that having to is a bad thing, it's a chosen have to.)
And I get to give a cat a pill. : ) (Is there anyone
besides my parents that know that joke? Prob'ly not.) The
only thing I think I won't do is see Shea. As much as I
miss him, this is Rora's weekend. I want to be able to
spend time focused on her. Same with Shea. I want the
next time we see each other to be US time, where we can be
alone, and just focus on each other. I don't think Rora'd
have too much of a problem if Shea came up, but I haven't
seen her in something like a month, maybe two, so I want to
have sister time. Granted Jona might come, and I wouldn't
be surprised if Dite came up, too, but maybe Kasie could
come, and we'd all be together. That'd be cool. But
regardless, it should be a girls' night. Shea will be a
little put out by it, but I think he'll understand.
I LOVE YOU, NINE SHANAL!
And everyone else, who don't know what that means. LOL




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