The mediocrity that is me
2002-09-07 10:40:44 (UTC)

someone love me, please.

I hate myself and want to die.

I seriously don't know what to do with my life. I don't
know where I am, who I am, or what the fuck is my purpose
in being here. I mean, who the fuck cares anyways.

I'm sure you don't.

Want to hear something?

If we had a gun in my house, in my immediate possesion, I
jnever would I have had to make it this far.

I could have been dead by now. Too bad I'm such a fucking

But like it would have mattered anyway.

I haven't cried this hard in a long time.

Like I don't know how pathetic this is. Like I don't know
how self-absorbed this is. Like I don't know how
incredibly fucking stupid this is. Don't tell me how
pathetic I am.... I already know.

Please, just don't judge me.

All I have ever wanted was to be loved.