naughttychild

ANARCHYCOOKBOOK
2001-07-21 01:30:35 (UTC)

CHAOTIC MINDLESS WORLD

SO MUCH SHIT IS RUNNING THROUGH MY MIND NOW
AND I CAN'T STAND IT. I CONSTANTLY FEEL
SO CONFUSED ALL THE TIME AND IT'S SO
ANNOYING. I HATE THIS FEELING MORE THAN
ANYTHING, AND I JUST WISH IT WOULD GO AWAY.
LIKE... IF I'M AROUND A LOT OF PEOPLE AND SOMEONE
DOES SOMETHING OR LOOKS AT ME A CERTAIN WAY, THAN
PAST BAD MEMORIES OR EXPERIENCES COME UP IN MY HEAD,
AND THAN THE WAY I FELT WHEN THAT EXPERIENCE OR EVENT
HAPPEND TO ME AT THAT TIME COMES UP IN MY HEAD AGAIN,
AND I RE-LIVE THE FEELING I FELT AT THAT TIME, AND
I THINK ALL THIS CONFUSION AND FEELINGS I GET IS WHERE
MOST OF MY ANGER STEMS FROM, IT'S REALLY HARD TO EXPLAIN,
AND I KNOW NO-ONE WILL UNDERSTAND ME WHICH ALSO MAKES
ME MAD. I HAVE ALL THESE DIFFERENT MIXED UP EMOTIONS
INSIDE ME SOMETIMES AT DIFFERENT TIMES AND SOMETIMES
AT THE SAME TIME. LIKE I CAN BE REALLY HYPER AND THAN REALLY
MAD. IT'S SO CONFUSING AND ANNOYING.
DUDE........ SUMMER IS ALMOST OVER AND IT'S ALMOST
AUGUST!!!!!!!!!!! THIS SUX BIG TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AUGUST WILL SOON BE HERE AND A WEEK FROM SUNDAY I HAVE
FIELD HOCKEY CAMP AND THAN THE 13TH OF AUGUST I HAVE
PRE-SEASON!!!!!!!!!! (MAJORLY SUCKS) AKA... HELL.
THE GOOD NEWS IS THAT THIS WEDNESDAY IS THE Y.100
FEZTIVAL AND THAT SHOULD BE REALLY AWSOME. I'M
SO STOKED ABOUT THAT. INCASE YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT Y.100
IS, IT'S AN ALTERNATIVE MUSIC STATION AND THEY'RE HAVING
A CONCERT WHICH THEY HAVE EVERY YEAR. BANDS LIKE NEW FOUND
GLORY, GOODCHARLOTTE, OUR LADY PEACE, WEEZER AND MUCH MORE
WILL BE THERE, IT'S ALWAYS SO MUCH FUN. THERE'S LIKE THREE
DIFFERENT STAGES NOT INCLUDING THE MAIN STAGE SO IF YOU DON'T LIKE ONE BAND YOU CAN JUST GO TO A DIFFERENT STAGE
TO A BAND YOU LIKE. THE SIDE STAGES ARE REALLY KEWL BECAUSE
YOU CAN GET RIGHT UP THERE WITH THE BAND AND THE PITS
ARE ROCKING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'M GONNA BE DOING SOME MAD CROWD SURFING MY SELF. LAST YEAR
AT THE FEASTIVAL IN THE WINTER I MET MARILYN RUSSEL WHO
WORKS ON THE SHOW AND SHE GAVE ME HER ARTIGRAPH!!!!!!
MARILYN RUSSEL ROCKS AND SHE IS THE SHIT. I LOVE YOU MARILYN
YOU ROCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ANY WAY I'M KIND OF MAD RIGHT NOW BECAUSE MY SISTER
IS ALWAYS SAYING SHIT TO ME AND SHE REALLY PISSES ME OFF,
YOU HAVE NO IDEA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
MY MOM PISSES ME OFF BECAUSE SHE SAYS SHIT TO GET ME MAD
AND IT STAYS IN MY HEAD THE THINGS SHE SAYS TO ME. I KNOW
HOLDING GRUDGES ARE BAD OR WHATEVER YOU WANNA SAY...........
BUT WHEN YOU'VE BEEN FUCKED W/ ALL YOUR LIFE YOU BEGIN
TO GET SICK OF PEOPLE TREATING YOU LIKE SHIT.

I'M GONNA GO NOW WRITE ME BACK PEEPS.
L8TER,
CHLOE