words just don't come....
maybe this time some words might come to let me explain
how i feel...to let me describe this unimaginable hell i
am living in. why can't i just say what i feel? write down
what has happened and let it all out, it is poisoning me,
it is eating me away, i have ended up stuck in this
bottomless abyss of darkness....where do i start? do i
start by telling you the things that happened to me when i
was 9? or do i let out some of the shit i feel about this
weekend gone? there's just too much of it, too much crap
to wade through...i can't do it, i can't...