Blaine

broken wings
2002-09-04 21:28:29 (UTC)

problems

I think that there is somthing about me that is differant
from everyone else. I don't know exactly what it is, but I
know it's there. I can feel it pushing me away, isolating
me. Even when I was younger I knew, somewhere in the back
of my head I knew. I tried to push it as far away as
possible, to conform to be an exact replica of everyone
else. I would hide myself away. Now I can't say when I
stopped doing this exactly, but somwhere along the line I
stoped tring. I don't know why. I guess I just got tired. i
stopped caring. I wish I could pertend forever, then I
wouldn't have to deal with anything. Have you noticed that
I like to run from my problems. I don't think this is a
very good sign. I don't like conflict, but it's everywhere
I look. Ohh well I guess somewhere along the line I will
have to grow up. I got totally off-track, but my mother
need the telephone so I have to go now. I'll try to finish
this littl ething up later. buh bye.




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