Ringmaster420ilj
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longest one so far
Hey I am extremely bored so I guess that I will write
becuz I dont wanna go to bed right now... I cant believe
that I didnt call my bf today hes gonna like think that I
hate him or something aahhh. Today he was gonna get on the
bus becuz he lives far away but he decided to come with me
to walgreens yeah its pretty weird having a bf becuz its
like you were friends but now its just weird and I wouldnt
break up with kris becuz he looks pretty mean and stuff so
you know.. God will just got on aim ggrr I hate him at the
moment but I am making so many friends and like the ones
that didnt like me before are like all of a sudden liking
me again!! Right now people are asking me to runaway with
them but I am begining to like my new life and I am trying
to help them thorugh theres becuz they are hating everyone
except me and they have major family probs!! so as long as
no one runs away we will be all good.. Kit kats mom is
threatning to send caitlin away to texas but I cant let
that happen otherwise I will help her runaway becuz I
would do anything not to let her move to texas she is the
only friend that is wild and I have 2 best friends and I
like them the way they both are even though they are
pretty different but thats the kewl thing about people if
we were all the same are life would be hell!As I think of
the school year to get further and further into the year
and moving on to bigger grades I am scared of dying
knowing that my time could be soon and it scares me
although I could die any time.. I dont wanna grow up and
live like an adult I wanna be like I am now so I can be
who I wanna be over and over again without it changing. I
am hoping to start a band soon and me the drummer/song
writer becuz I wanna be a drummer when I grow up I wanna
be popular and people to like me becuz than I can show
everyone that hated me who I became and what they were
mean to but I also wanna do this becuz I love drumming its
the best way of making noise shall I say in the whole
world..I dont know what I would rather be a drummer or a
dancer for music.. some of my friends dont agree with me
on the drumming thing becuz it will take away my friends
but thats not true! I would keep in touch with my friends
I wont become one of those people that just forgets about
people becuz they are some what famous I love my friends
and dont know what I would do without them.. I love them
and some I love in that way girls and guys but I am proud
the way I am I can say I like girls and I can say I like
guys.. I love my best friend bizzarbtch she is someone I
could go out with and love becuz I have known her for so
long its like we are together only without the affrection.
Except for a few times.. And I am not gonna lie about what
I am about to say but if I ever find my love Justin again
than I think I am gonna devote my life to him becuz I love
him and I would give up my bf now for justin just becuz I
love justin and cant stop but flea is a maybe becuz he did
hurt me but I still love him and thats pretty weird to say
but that has been my only true love becuz through all this
I always think about him and everything I see and hear
reminds me of him and it is hard to know that I am not
with him anymore and that I cant kiss him again becuz he
doesnt like me like he used to. But for now I am good to
go and I will write tomorrow about what happens tomorrow
heheh
Love Always the unforgettable
Ringmaster420!!!!!!
I love you justin and hope to find you again
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