Ringmaster420ilj

Bizzar
2002-09-04 03:37:50 (UTC)

longest one so far

Hey I am extremely bored so I guess that I will write

becuz I dont wanna go to bed right now... I cant believe

that I didnt call my bf today hes gonna like think that I

hate him or something aahhh. Today he was gonna get on the

bus becuz he lives far away but he decided to come with me

to walgreens yeah its pretty weird having a bf becuz its

like you were friends but now its just weird and I wouldnt

break up with kris becuz he looks pretty mean and stuff so

you know.. God will just got on aim ggrr I hate him at the

moment but I am making so many friends and like the ones

that didnt like me before are like all of a sudden liking

me again!! Right now people are asking me to runaway with

them but I am begining to like my new life and I am trying

to help them thorugh theres becuz they are hating everyone

except me and they have major family probs!! so as long as

no one runs away we will be all good.. Kit kats mom is

threatning to send caitlin away to texas but I cant let

that happen otherwise I will help her runaway becuz I

would do anything not to let her move to texas she is the

only friend that is wild and I have 2 best friends and I

like them the way they both are even though they are

pretty different but thats the kewl thing about people if

we were all the same are life would be hell!As I think of

the school year to get further and further into the year

and moving on to bigger grades I am scared of dying

knowing that my time could be soon and it scares me

although I could die any time.. I dont wanna grow up and

live like an adult I wanna be like I am now so I can be

who I wanna be over and over again without it changing. I

am hoping to start a band soon and me the drummer/song

writer becuz I wanna be a drummer when I grow up I wanna

be popular and people to like me becuz than I can show

everyone that hated me who I became and what they were

mean to but I also wanna do this becuz I love drumming its

the best way of making noise shall I say in the whole

world..I dont know what I would rather be a drummer or a

dancer for music.. some of my friends dont agree with me

on the drumming thing becuz it will take away my friends

but thats not true! I would keep in touch with my friends

I wont become one of those people that just forgets about

people becuz they are some what famous I love my friends

and dont know what I would do without them.. I love them

and some I love in that way girls and guys but I am proud

the way I am I can say I like girls and I can say I like

guys.. I love my best friend bizzarbtch she is someone I

could go out with and love becuz I have known her for so

long its like we are together only without the affrection.

Except for a few times.. And I am not gonna lie about what

I am about to say but if I ever find my love Justin again

than I think I am gonna devote my life to him becuz I love

him and I would give up my bf now for justin just becuz I

love justin and cant stop but flea is a maybe becuz he did

hurt me but I still love him and thats pretty weird to say

but that has been my only true love becuz through all this

I always think about him and everything I see and hear

reminds me of him and it is hard to know that I am not

with him anymore and that I cant kiss him again becuz he

doesnt like me like he used to. But for now I am good to

go and I will write tomorrow about what happens tomorrow

heheh


Love Always the unforgettable

Ringmaster420!!!!!!
I love you justin and hope to find you again




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