why_me_beacause

no more tears 2 cry they dryed up & went
2002-09-04 02:24:45 (UTC)

tomorrow tomorrow i love yeah tomorrow

well today was just a day nothing new nothing old....i
swear im going insane i wrote a creepy song this
weekend i really scared myself and i mean it i did here
read a bit of it

You hear that shot as the last sound in your head....
With a hole you can feel it......
And as the blood drains out of your skull.....
Because the knife was too dull......
You tried to cut it all away...
And then one day you changed your mind...
You could never find yourself and now you figured it all
out....
I just know why and how you feel I knew what the deal
was.....

(Chorus)
I’m sorry I’m sorry I can’t see cause I’m crying
I’m sorry I’m sorry I can’t see cause I’m crying
I sit here and think that could have been me
but I’m sorry I’m sorry I can’t see cause I’m crying


you see i really think im going nuts......the thing is i write
and it makes people think something is wrong truth be
told nothing is wrong but nothing is right either.......

.still kinda
hurting from it but not showing much i swear i should
be an actress cause all the acting i do is well good no
one can see through it yet.....im so sick of
acting........kinda thinking about telling my mom that im
sorta depressed an getting back in coucling again on
meds er something.....but why ................im slowly
getting sick of people there just stupid........theres a
friends birthday party i have to go too this weekend i
dont want to go..........theres a concert but i know i have
to go to her party ive been blowing her off for no reason
at all.....i feel bad.....everyone is kinda annoying me right
now ......no clue why...............


my dad hasnt called in so long i wonder if he is still
alive....i think that everyday damn day......

3 years of school left and im free what if i like liveing in
my little cage what if im affraid what if i hate but have no
clue what to do without school what if im just lost
today.......i know what i want to do just need to do it....


im really excited about going to new york with me
choir...i guess you could say is that is the only thing that
keeps me going right now


and well tara my best friend without her understanding
and well being her i woudn't be here okay right now i
listening to a cd she made me and that one song from
annie just came on you know tomorrow tomorrow i love
yeah tomorrow you know it just makes me smile she
knows when i need that and gosh shes not even here
and there it is the sun will come out tomorrow....what
would i do with out her you see im kinda worried about
her shes sick but not really but she is and well i know
and im not saying nothing cause if she wanted help
she would get it .......hopeing shes all right and lets me
know if i can help be there or anything.....


for some reason i changed muzik all in a year i went
from pop all the way to gothic or what you call metal
muzik with fuck this and fuck that and i started wearing
the clothes too it just kinda happen and now i drink too i
swear it im looseing it slowly i swore i would never reliy
on stuff but i do and i have............drinking isnt all that
bad is it now..........

im vice president of my treble choir dont see how that
happen truthfully kinda dont know i really dont why me
why me


i cant think of anything to type now so im outa here




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