A Leap of Faith
2000-10-28 09:19:44 (UTC)

I suppose every diary starts..

I suppose every diary starts somewhere.
But I hate introductions.
How about if you just know me as I know me.
Scared, Excited, Selfish and Real.
I hate all the bullshit people tell you.
What you should and shouldn't be.
How would they know?
So where do I begin? Now that's a good question.

I could start with the fact that I'm learning.
That I have a long term boyfriend.
Good Grades. A healthy circle of friends.
I am the typical at first glance.
The one everyone wants to be the one people envy and don't know why.

Now here is another angle.
I have the typical American family.
I have just been introduced to religion because my mom raised me with
out a single word of God (thank you mom)
I rebel for the hell of it
I push my feelings aside for people who aren't even real friends.
I refuse to cry.
But I think there is something different about me.
I'm a Witch.

I am on the verge of going to private school, which I am thrilled
But my friends keep thinking I should be sad.
I have been with this guy for years now and I love him.
But I know he doesn't love me.
He believes he does and I don't know how to let him go.
And all I have become to him is an ideal.
He doesn't see me, he sees what he thinks is Love.
I've been there.

I have a friend Amy, she's a Witch like me.
We have been friends forever.
Literally, lifetimes.
I suppose I am a mentor of such, a sister figure, a protector.
Wheather she sees it or not that is the position I have filled.
Recently I told her about a destiny she has. Which I won't share at
this point and time.
But the event draws near.

Now to the most important aspect.
My mom, I will explain my family history later also.
But to sum it up, my mom and I are close.

I guess you could say I'm the typical teenager.
Who is writing adventures in a book online and posting it for others
to gain knowledge from.
But if you hang around, you are in for a hell of a ride!