lonlybuttrfli

lonlybuttrfli
2002-09-03 03:30:06 (UTC)

labor day

bo and katie are starting to hook up... that bothers me...
they were 'fooling' around the other night and katie
suggested that i become involved... that's got me
thinking... perhaps it is time that i confront this...
bo always jokes around with me... it is silly ...
just a joke,right? i feel so close to her... am i
attracted to her? is this what it's like... or should
i just be friends? it is truly crazy... am i ...? i
have no true interest in guys anymore... i am so
anti-penis it is hilarious... i had a chance to be with
jessie the other night... i turned it down to be with bo... why have i
lost interest? this is mind - boggling... and frankly, not
another stress that i wish handle right
now.... i have decided to let it pass and ignore my
attraction to my best friend... it's probably just a phase...

i went to amanda's today... alexis was sleeping... they
told me to wake her so she wouldn't be up all night...
she wouldn't stop crying once she was awake... i am
waiting until i know i am truly ready to have kids...
that's just way too much.




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