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change machines and apple trees
2002-09-03 02:19:18 (UTC)

so its true.....you can never go home again....

so im back in tallahassee. and going home would have been
a total mistake, but i got to see joe'l, and that makes
anything worthwhile. i made my mom cry, and my sis was
pissed at me, and im sure my dad wasn't all that pleased
either.....but enough of family problems. ~~it is true,
you can never go home again....i realized that when
i 'went home' this past weekend. its not my home anymore,
im a guest, and thats slightly dificult to realize. i was
sitting in my old room, and i was just thinking about how
im never going to decorate that room to suit me again. it
was just a weird weekend, home-wise that is. every second
that i could get away from my family i spent with joe'l.
and all those seconds would never be long enough...last
night, i stayed at her house, (thank god for small
favors), and for awhile, we just layed in her bed and held
hands,,,i love that. i love her, she is such an amazing
woman, and its unimaginable how hard it is being so far
away from her. this morning, when she was still sleeping,
i just watched her sleep. i was amazed yet again at how
beautiful she is....i was just in awe......~~she gave me
roses when she came over on saturday. i kept them all, and
now they're drying in my room. thank you joe'l....i love
you hun. ~danielle




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